INVITATIONS TO INTERVIEW!

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itz been almost a month since my very first post.
how time flies.

im feeling v anxious now actually
ive applied to 4 schools in tw and got invites to interview @ 3 schools.
the one that turned me down said i didnt submit the proper docs n my gpa was not above 3.2..
though im v sure mine is above that.. and i actually spent hours hand writing my essays in both
eng n chn.. my hand was literally aching n in spasms having to write so much.
oh well. itz their loss. hahahaha.


so, ive done 1 skype interview. another one tmr and d final one next wk..
im like really anxious and nervous waiting for the result to the 1st one! my muscles get all
cramped up just thinking abt it. kept replaying the interview every idle moment, checking my
email n their webby like every idle second.. dying to find something from them. although i know
d results will b out next wk, im still checking every single second for the past wk.. hahaha.
ive survived 6 days post interview n i needa live thru another 3 more days b4 i know d result.


to b honest, i really hope i get accepted to dis one. i dunno, i kinda get a gd feeling abt the
whole thingy n i do imagined myself accepted into d school. but im trying not to harbour
too much expectations, just in case i dun get it in the end. the disappointment will be pretty
great.... ):


well, they also say if u can imagine it, u can have it. i really do hope so.
but the wait is really killing me.. such agonising time just waiting for the day to come!!
ARRRRGH. i cldnt get any mcat study done at all.. or maybe i just didnt want to.
i feel my entire system repelling studying for the mcat. but if tw fails, i will really have to force
myself to get down to it really seriously within these few days. else d time will fly n b4 i
know it, d day will come n i wldnt be prepared for it.


BUT i do hope, and i mean really HOPE im getting to tw!!!!


i really put in a lot of effort in preparing my tw applications. those days were so draining and
as usual, thots of giving up applying coz it really wasnt easy at all. i had to translate practically
every aspect of my app into chinese. rushing to meet the dateline and spending hundreds of
$$ for the app fee and paying to have them fedex to d schools.... and then prep my interview
Q&A in chn.. ohh man. i seriously thot mcat was hard enuff.. applying was just as hard.
i guess everything abt med school is hard. itz really for those who r determined to survive n
graduate at the end of the road. im beginning to be realistic that getting into med school isnt
gonna be d end of my fight.. it is probably just the beginning.. to stay afloat in med school with
sufficient grades to graduate.. ive heard n read stories online that ppl do drop out half way..


the first interview felt good. d school had also been friendly in d interaction thus far so i wasnt
surprised when d prof was friendly in d interview as well. to be honest, i dun really recall wat
kind of answers i gave to their qns. all i rem was, i heard d qn, processed for a sec n i gave
mixes n matches of d ans ive prepared.. i was really nervous!! i do hope i gave a gd enuff
impression n impact for them to accept me. as they always say, a med school interview is
almost as good as an acceptance.. it is just sooooooo close to it.


d prof said,"generally, i dun see any prob...." it kinda sound really good and positive....
BUT then again, it can also simply be a politically correct n generic kind of words they use
during such an interview.. ARRRGGHHH. im like repeating myself coz on one hand, i wanna
believe im getting accepted while on the other hand, i shd really keep my expectations and
excitement in check.



then comes d next qns.... IF i am going to med school in tw, can i really bear to leave all
my precious things behind n just go?
i used to be so determined abt getting into med school that i thot i can just walk away for
the sake of fulfilling the dream.. but then now that i am soooo close to it and feeling it, im
beginning to get cold feet.. am i able to get the scholarship to fund my studies?
can i really blend in and cope with the rigorous studies, especially d chn and being a full
time student all over again?
am i really up to it to mk it to med school?
how abt my family back in sg? will they b able to provide and take care of themselves?
where am i gonna get the funds to fund d years of study n living there?


suddenly, there seems like a lot of things i haven done n i needa get done for myself n my
family shd i really mk it to tw.... it's like wow, i dun have d time since i wld need to leave in
2 mths' time and therez just so much to do n arrange....
yes, im seeing that far. i have a gd feeling i will mk it to tw....
but is this really the way? how abt d money?


it just freezes me out when i get these vibes....
im probably thinking too much now but.... it's a whole flood of contradicting thoughts and
emotions.... i really hope to hear good news next wk. not just get into d school but also
getting d scholarship. but if i dun.... then perhaps, dis isnt the way to go for me.
ive planned, ive worked hard, ive put in d efforts.... if i dun get it. im disappointed of coz.
but i will just have to take it that it isnt meant for me. something else is for me.


for now, prep for the interview tmr!!
and wait out another THREE LONG DAYS for the results.
I PRAY THAT IT WILL BE GOOD NEWS!!!!


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