DIRECTION

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rushing for datelines
stressing over tests n exams
stressing over marks n results


sometimes, or rather, many times
i stopped n asked myself why am i doing dis.
why did i even get myself into dis in d first place.
i really could be enjoying a comfortable life now.
not exactly rich but not poor either.
no worries abt exams, marks, but decently earning a living.

at 31, why did i forgo everything n went into dis.
sometimes i wonder....
wat exactly am i pursuing.

i feel, sometimes, my life isnt that simple.
im called to do n accomplish great things.
things which i haven seen nor can comprehend.
there is something in my life that needed to b done.
and im simply headed in that direction.

how do i put it....
like, im being led, on auto pilot, to just keep going,
single mindedly to reach a goal.


it hasnt been easy. d ultra young classmates, d chinese
environment, d financially struggling n d alone feeling....

i will just keep my focus. do wat i can.
if this is meant to be, things will happen, things will mk way,
things will open doors up and lead me to where i am supposed to go.


people who achieve great things often struggled in aloneness, isnt it?


*there is a distinct difference between loneliness and aloneness ~


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