就是想赖在家

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it's already the 3rd day of sep!!
11 more nights nia and i will be off off off off ....

i keep a list of things to do in my hp app
it's a long list of things that ive been striking off, adding on,
striking off, adding on, striking off, adding on.. d list doesnt seem to end
BUT if there's really no need to get out of d house.. i will just spend d
hrs at home.. with things to do but just being a couch potato, stoning n
doing nothing but walking up and down the spaces in d hse....
the comfortable sofa, the fully stocked fridge, the tv, the gadgets,
the cats, the dog, the bed, checking every thing that's old, that's spoilt,
that's rusted, the abt to choke sink, the old roller blinds, the toilet spray,
all the small little things that i shd fix up in the house....
basically, the comforts of a HOME.... i know im not gonna get all these
once i land in tw in slightly more than a wk' time.
就是想赖在家


就是放不下
my family, my dogs....
wish i can care less.. then i wont be so burdened when i have to leave
everything and everyone behind.. BUT i cant change my DNA..
im hoping my bro can and will stand in d gap for d family when im away
i know he is capable of doing that but he's just 21.. dun really want him
to stand in d gap just bcoz i choose to walk my path.. not fair i feel.
but i know he is a gd boy-man, growing up to be a reliable n sturdy man.
for now, with the remaining days, i will fix up whatever i can in d hse
for them, mk things better, change those 7 yr old fixtures to new ones that
can last them d next few yrs and clean up most of d hse for them..

as much as i know that im taking care of the family, i know im kind a
pampered kid @ 31 yrs old. HA HA HA
never have to worry abt having no food to eat at home, parents always
stock up d fridge with food n drinks, packing loads of food back on wkends..
washing n folding all my clothes, and all d misc chores that i hate doing....
NOBODY'S GONNA DO THESE FOR ME THERE!!


gonna miss home for sure. not sure how drastic the change is gonna affect
me and how im gonna finance myself for the next 5.5 yrs (minus d 1st 6 mths
on full allowance mode) but nonetheless, one step at a time la.
worry so much also no use. plan but dun worry.


gotta start packing start packing start packing start packing LIAO!!!!
EXCITED 却很舍不得 ~


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