再一次找回自己

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time is flying by so fast
wondered how i was gonna survive thru more than 2 mths aft i tendered
i continued to work my best and things got busy suddenly;
and now i have less than 1.5 weeks left officially at work
not tat i dread my work, in fact i still have so many ideas n concepts that i wanna
play with and work with but i guess time is running out real quick for me
the place, the lifestyle, the life there.. has definitely become a part of me and has
taken on a life of its own aft so many years. and ah mao n spotty.... AAHHHH ~~
im a hopeless sentimental.


and only about a mth left before i board that 4h 45mins jet plane to tw.


dis job has definitely taken a life of its own. cld never share what i do with those
close to me. the joy, the satisfaction, the frustration, the *&*^$%#@! etc..
subconsciously, i had built a shell around n withdrew into it. and it doesnt help
that i was fighting the MCAT monster, which just made things worst.
everything is SOP, by rules n laws, rigidity that has taken over the joyful n carefree spirit.

with the need to interact with patients, patients' families, it will become a
necessary good to engage earnestly and heartily with those i will have to take care.
i started out wanting to help others but i kinda lost part of me to work.. i see the next
chapter in life as coming back to who i was. with the same goal to save lives, but back
to the loudly fearless, ridiculous, lame n free bird who no longer need to care a hair abt
the weight of the blue. wearing d white coat is not easy either but it's a different ball game.
ive gained many valuable skills n knowledge in this chapter of my life but it's time to

再一次找回自己
再一次做回自己


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